Trust Without Borders

There is a very popular worship song out right now called Oceans by Hillsong. Many churches have added it to their worship sets. As the congregation sings they raise their hands and say " Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander and my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my savior." The other week we were singing it at the church I go to only this time it gave me pause. Did I truly understand what I was saying? Did I honestly want to let God lead me to places unknown where I would be stretched and tried?




I think as believers we all come to that place (probably multiple times in our walk) where we cry out Lord there must be more than what I currently have. Lord give me more, lead me, take me, use me.... I am yours and you are mine. I know the Lord is always willing to answer when his children desire more of him, whether we are always ready for the reality of that growth is another thing altogether.

I cried as I sang this because I wanted it, I trusted God in it, and yet I knew trials would come to stretch me. There is a parable in Luke 14:25-33 that speaks of counting the cost before following the Lord lest you lay a foundation and do not finish. He says you must forsake all. I am more and more grasping this principle and let me tell you the answer is always yes he is worthy.

 It was a few weeks later that my trust began to be stretched. He is leading me to a place where my trust is without borders, where my sight must see beyond what this natural world is telling me. Just as with my experience with the loss of my little one in September there is never a question of whether God is good or whether he will work this current trial out for good (Romans 8:28) I know he will I do not question that; but it does not make the trial any easier. It doesn't make me understand it any better.

There were only two people in the Bible who literally walked on water Jesus and Peter. Peter saw beyond the reality of what the world was telling him. In the natural world humans don't walk on water they sink or they swim but they don't walk on it. Unless of course your focus is not on the natural but on the one who created the whole world; because with God nothing is impossible. That is a promise I cling to now.

The Lord is blessing me with two little girls, identical twins. I still can't believe it, twins! But in the same breath that told me I was having twins told me that one had zero chance of living past birth. This was not a 20% chance, 5% chance... it was 0% a guarantee as far as the doctors are concerned. I understand their prognosis, I don't think it's wrong or that the scan was in error. They are right in the natural my little girl has no chance of living given the birth defect she has. But I am not limited to this natural world. I am a daughter of the God who made the world and I know he is not bound by this world's limitations. I may have to live within time, with in the laws of nature but he created it all. My daughter may not have what is needed to live outside the womb at the moment but that does not mean she won't by the time she is born. Miracles we read about them in the Bible and that God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. He still works on behalf of his children, he still hears their cries. He is still God.

He is leading me to a place where my trust is without borders, He is all together good and through this I am growing.