Birthdays
I have been trying to write this post for days; verses come to mind like "Rejoice with them that do rejoice, and weep with them that do weep." Romans 12:15 & "Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted." Matthew 5:4. I have so much to rejoice over, so much to praise God for and be thankful for. There have been so many answered prayers. And in the midst of the joy is sorrow too, but in all things God has worked this out for good. I love him more as I walk through this and see his Fatherly hands upon every part. As I have said from the beginning God is good in all things.
On Tuesday at 10:54 & 11:04pm my little girls entered the world, one for just a few short hours. Their birth was a miracle that only God could have orchestrated, it amazed my doctor and nursing staff.
All day Tuesday I felt fine I had no felt contractions (I contracted daily but most of the time I didn't feel them). A woman my dad had met at the hospital weeks prior came to visit and pray with me. Her prayer brought such peace and joy. (On a side note please pray for her as she goes to the mission field tomorrow to spread th gospel with her cousin, her name is Azany.) The Lord was already preparing my heart for this birth. I also had a visit from my son.
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| Isaac praying for his sisters |
To give you a little background though my doctor said vaginal birth was not out of the question, a c-section seemed eminent. On Saturday Tessa (baby a the one closest to the cervix) was transverse (lying sideways) which meant definite c-section if I had delivered than. I was also facing possible blood transfusions because of how stretched I was. My doctor was prepared for a whole host of complications, the way the nurses spoke he had plans all the way to Z! I am so thankful for my doctor and his care and wisdom.
So I prayed for the girls to turn head down. I prayed my husband would be there when I went into labor. I prayed for a vaginal delivery and I prayed for no blood transfusions.
Tuesday night at 7pm (shift change for my nurses) I felt my first contraction. A band of pain wrapping from my lower back to my front. I told my husband who was there because he stays Tuesday, Thursday, and Sunday night with me (answer to prayer). We waited to see if I would have another, they were somewhat consistent at about 5 minutes apart. So we called our nurse and let them know, I said my pain level was 4 or 5. A little while later my pain level was a 6 and so they called my doctor and put the IV fluids back on. By about 9:30 my nurse came in again and asked what my pain is I said 6 but they saw my face through the contraction and said that's not the face of a 6. My husbands comment was yeah she saying 6 because she thinks it's only going to get worse. The doctor was called and someone from labor and delivery came up to check how far dilated I was. Fully dilated within in 2 1/2 hours I was headed downstairs to the OR. They prepped me for a c section and sent me down.
I was wheeled into the OR (all moms of multiples deliver in what is called a double set up, I can try to deliver vaginally but if something goes wrong a csection is all prepared). My doctor had an ultrasound on hand to check the babies position both were head down. His next words were whenever you're ready push (more answered prayer). Within 20 minutes both girls were born and a placenta that was bigger than both girls and bigger than anything my doctor had seen. As for my water breaking 8 liters of fluid came out!!!!! I was the talk of the labor and delivery floor because of how unusual everything was, my belly literally deflated as all the water came rushing out. So even though I was in an OR in a hospital I technically had a home birth which is what I had hoped for at the beginning of this pregnancy , God is good in every detail.
Little Tessa Joy came out crying and breathing on her own. She weighed 3.5lbs. She was on air for a little over a day and now breathes on her own with out any help! Our biggest prayer need is for her digestive system, she has yet been able to digest any breast milk there was lots of gas in her tummy which is not uncommon for preemies. She is on IV's that give her all the nutrition she needs.
My sweet Hannah was able to spend a few hours with us. Those were precious moments with her. My momma's heart wishes she could still be here. I miss her, but she is somewhere I long to be too with my Lord. And she is healed.
My heart is a mixture of rejoicing and sadness for my girls. I am home now and I do love being home but I miss all of the nurses who became my friends and my doctor who I saw everyday. I miss daily visits with friends and family. In this season I know I am blessed and God truly is good. He has given me a peace that surpasses what I could ever imagine and great joy.
"... Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning." Psalm 30:5b A verse that I knew would be for my birth before I knew I was carrying twin girls.
My visit with Tessa Joy today she was about to get a new feeding tube put in so I got to see her with out all her tubes! And I got to hold her. I can't thank you enough for all of your prayers.
